Apology Accepted … For Now

My friend Nat sent a text to me last week about maybe meeting up and having dinner. The initial reaction I had with her text is, “She’s going to blow me off again”, so I didn’t really expect much. I responded saying I’m free and leaving it at that. Surprisingly, she actually wanted to meet this time.

So we decided to meet on Thursday after both us got off from work and eat at Cheesecake Factory. Both of us haven’t been there for ages and I wanted to try their Miso Salmon because my co-worker say’s, “it’s sooo delicious!!”. I didn’t take a picture of it, but found one online.

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The salmon was cooked well, wasn’t dry, had the perfect moistness to it and the presentation of it was very pleasing to the eye.

I mean look at it! I didn’t want to eat it and the server even complimented how “pretty” it was, haha. I had to charge dinner to my card because I barely had enough cash to cover dinner, let alone tip.

I let her know about how I felt being blown off … I mean she’s a close friend of mine and it sucks to be treated almost like a doormat sometimes. We talked about it and she told me what’s been happening to her, etc.. She apologized and I accepted it … for now. I never know if this will happen again.

We caught up on life and everything that’s been happening with her. She got a new car, still working as a social worker (I think that’s what she does), still with her boyfriend and she seems happy. We talked about my boring and routine schedule of work, work, and yes … work. Is that all I really do these days?

She asked who I still talk / hang out with and I mentioned some people from my previous job. I was talking about how awkward it is for me to hang out with them sometimes because it feels like I’m the odd-man out now.

In the sense that most of the conversation entails what’s happening at their job, and I asked her if she ever felt that way too (both of us used to work at the same place) because she’s been in my shoes before too.

Her response was, “Yeah of course, like you just sit there and look around in space?”. I sat there laughing because that’s what I usually do, haha. But she reminded me that she’s still good friends with these two other girls both of us know, even after they quit and she was still working there.

I do enjoy seeing my friends from my previous job whenever given the chance, even though I don’t know what they’re talking about at all; it’s just good to see them sometimes. I am reminded of the saying, “I guess you just had to be there”.

We then started to talk about my relationship with my parents (or lack thereof) and my love life (again .. lack thereof). She started to ask questions, “How do you expect to meet anyone?”, “Don’t you get sad or lonely?”.

Of course those questions reside in the back of my mind too, it’s just that I don’t ever really think about them until someone brings it up.

She said she went on vacation to San Francisco last December and that sounded somewhat intriuging because it’s been years since I’ve set foot in that city.

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We wrapped up dinner and said next time we could try Greek food because she “loves” it. I guess we’ll see or I’ll call her up next month to see what happens. She invited me to go to a bar with a couple of mutual friends of ours, she knows that’s not my “thing” but offered non-the-less.

I think she mentioned that she was going to Vegas, again with some mutual friends of ours … but she knows me well to know that Vegas isn’t really my thing either. A couple of hours there is fine … but a couple of day’s is out of the question.

The weekend was quiet as usual, met up with my buddy James to grab lunch on Friday. Drove around aimlessly on Saturday because I couldn’t stand being at home and sat home all day on Sunday. So kind of a quiet / boring weekend for me as usual.

I’m sitting here right now and was thinking of calling my friend Ryan up. The thing is, I’m deathly nervous of doing so for some reason and I don’t understand why. Stupid me.

- A