We Interrupt Our Regularly Scheduled Blog

So I was at work and overheard my co-worker’s say my name. At the moment I was busy trying to remember one of my many passwords to login into an application. All I heard was, my name … “It’s true” … and an odd look.

My worst fear came true … they found out I was gay. My mind started racing on things I’ve written hear about my crush, what I’ve been doing, an insight into my life … the whole shabang. I quickly logged into WordPress and deleted my previous post concerning my crush. Found out later they said my name because of the training we’re doing later next month. Me … training again? … Hope I do well … *jumps for joy*

Again .. all of us were walking and yet he didn’t once make the effort in talking to me. Not even a, “Hey .. how was your weekend”. Why do I have to make the move?

I find it odd that I can’t just be myself. I’m faking again … being someone I’m not … why should I care? I don’t honestly … it’s just that when you’re in a semi-corporate environment …. being gay isn’t the easiest thing to do. Which sucks because that doesn’t define who I am as a person. Just afraid I guess … . If they can’t tell by the purple shirt or the pink shirt I’m planning to wear … then there gaydar is worse than mine.

What do you guy’s think? Should I come out to them? Does it really matter?

My crush watches Project Runway, American’s Next Top Model, and The Next Pussycat Doll. I mean .. he has to be gay right. Damn me and my gaydar … crap.

So let’s get back to our regularly scheduled blog …

- Cheers, Curious Me